This blog is about the exhilarating, yet torturous journey away from methadone. Methadone is a drug that lulls a person into a false sense of security. This drug also lulls a person’s God given senses to life; those of smelling, tasting and even seeing. While methadone doesn’t prevent a person from visually seeing, it prevents a person from noticing the beauty of life.
I will give you an example:
I always walked around kicking mushrooms when I was on methadone. I didn’t know why- I just did it. I now know I wanted to destroy because I failed to notice its beauty. Everything is becoming beautiful to me again because everything around me is living and I sense it. Sensing is just something methadone will not have a person do.
One day along this detox path, I was outside and saw the sky turning grey. I knew it was about to rain, but never so much as when I noticed the smell of the rain blowing in with the wind. It became a powerful moment when I realized the rain, something I had not smelled in so long, smelled gorgeous. How could I have ever missed such a smell?
You will see, if you read this blog what a terrible thing methadone is. I had been on pain pills for years (before methadone), and while it is true, they were bad, they don’t have a thing on methadone. Methadone, above all other opiates, is a true evil in our society. I am coming out of this hole now, but it has been the worst experience of my life.
Even worse than the experience is the fact that I have had to do it virtually alone. The clinic has never given me a program for escape, never offered me a chance to speak to the physician that signs my prescription for methadone, and never facilitated a meeting with others who have been through this painful detox. They haven’t done these things because they do not want us off methadone.
I have written in my blog that methadone is the worst drug created by the worst in humans- the Nazis. There is nothing natural about it- it is a synthetic opiate. That means basically that it is completely man-made, and I believe made for one purpose; holding people down and raping them of everything that the drug dealers (that sold us our drugs) before them left.
At times this blog has been my outlet because my brain has been so scattered throughout this process. However, until now, I didn’t really know what it was for. It is very clear now. This is a starting point for those that have already, and those that will regain purpose in life. I believe it is our purpose to expose this drug and these drug pushers (methadone clinics) for what they really are.
It took me nearly one full year to wade through all the pro methadone bullshit strategically placed all over the internet by these drug pushers. And until now, I didn’t realize why it has been so hard for me to contact someone that has been where I am. Although it is true, there are not many (that have detoxed), that is not the reason. I believe that the reason is because the methadone clinics do not want us making contact.
The methadone clinics know of the evil they push and they know how easy it will be for them to be exposed if we band together. That is why, I believe it is our duty as Generation X to expose and rid this country of this abomination. It didn’t start with us, but we need to be the ones to finish it. Please help me do this as I know that I cannot do it alone.