My name is…

The day I decided to quit methadone at 12.5mgs, I called my wife. The first thing I said was, “It’s over”. My voice was cracking and she didn’t know what in the hell I was talking about. At the time, I couldn’t believe she didn’t know what I was saying. I hung up the phone and felt as if there should have been extreme excitement on her part. Hell, I thought she should have had fireworks planned to celebrate. Not the cheap Florida fireworks either, the true ones from South Carolina that go “BANG!”

It took me several months to get back to the point of knowing what I did, I did for me. I quit methadone because it is a God given gift, whenever we choose, to put addiction on its back. I celebrate largely alone because those who haven’t experienced detox don’t know. They can’t know I’m stronger because of it. It has made me and defined everything I’ve always wanted to be as a human. I wear it now because I’m not ashamed. I’m not anonymous because I am everyone. My name is Aashton, and I am not an addict!

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9 responses to “My name is…

  1. I am so proud of you! Congratulations!

  2. like that….the longer im away from that group the more i realize their dependence on something other than themselves is the reason they keep repeating the same mistakes over and over. People will search high and low for the answer and all the while its right between their ears.

  3. Amazing 🙂
    Hope all is well and sending west coast vibes your way!
    Ivy

  4. you speak the truth, my time is in motion right now
    24 years on this is more than enough,
    Thank you my friend for not giving up.

  5. Hey there!! How’s it going Aashton??

    🙂

  6. Sorry I haven’t been here in a while Ivy. I just needed time to regroup after the 9 month process of detox. I am happy to say now, I am 170 days off methadone. I feel amazing, and have started to write a book. I’ll be posting more and more here again. Hope you’re doing well, and had/have a wonderful Thanksgiving/Christmas. Love!

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