I am officially at 15mgs/day and I’m not feeling swell.
My guts feel like they’re turned inside out and I wish I could flush them down the toilet.
I’ve done so much writing today my head feels like it might explode in 5 minutes.
I’m busy doubting everything I know I have to do, and it sucks bad.
Anybody that shows me compassion I appreciate, but I can’t tell you that now.
I wish I had never taken a pill in my life, but I wanted to stop today from being so fucking yesterday.
Methadone has the absolute worst hooks of all pain killers.
When I dig hooks it hurts until I understand why it hurts.
I’m going to get up tomorrow and start writing this thing of mine right.